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TODAY I AM A BIT BUMMED...I CANT QUITE PINPOINT IT! IN THE SOCIETY WE LIVE IN WE ARE DRILLED WITH HOW IMPORTANT MONEY IS AND TO AN EXTENT DO WHATEVER YOU CAN TO HAVE IT AND LOTS OF IT! I MEAN BY WAY OF SOCIETY IS MUCH MORE ACCEPTING OF THE WORKING MOTHER THAN THE STAY AT HOME MOM! MONEY MATTERS SO MUCH IN OUR SOCIETY AND IT MAKES ME BUMMED THAT I FEEL SO INADEQUATE BECAUSE I AM HOME WITH THE KIDS. I MEAN IT JUST BREAKS MY HEART TO THINK OF THE 3 BABIES HAVING TO BE IN DAY CARE AND ESPECIALLY MITCHELL WHO IS SO MUCH MORE ATTACHED TO ME THAN THE OTHER KIDS ARE ( SINCE HE DOESNT SPEAK) I FEEL LIKE HE WOULD BE LOST IF THE ONE THING THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE 24/7 WAS SUDDENLY NOT THERE. AND I WISH I COULD GET OVER THE FEELINGS OF NOT DOING ENOUGH AND NOT BEING ENOUGH. THE WHOLE MONEY THING IS LAME TO ME I WANT MY KIDS TO KNOW THAT WHILE IT IS IMPORTANT TO BE RESPONSIBLE (WORK IN OR OUT OF THE HOME)ANYWAY I AM DONE WITH MY RANT!!!LOVE Y'ALL